chemistry …everybody needs it once in a while
Lately, I’ve been having the strangest feeling. I guess I could call it "loneliness". Not lonely on the context that you’re home alone, but lonely in a sense that you feel kind of….hollow. Admittedly, I have been a single woman for 5, wait, almost 6 years since I’m almost 20. That singleness not counting the flings, hook-ups, one-time dates and one night stands (which I’ve never had yet anyway,hehe). This phase started some time ago. I’ve first noticed it everytime i go to my routine train ride on the way to school. I see couples seemingly enjoying each other’s companies, and there’s this little sigh machine that goes off.
Irritating, yes. Why? Because I can’t even find reason for this…this…thing! This lonely-hollow-y feeling. Everyone has issues, true. I know most people, mostly women say, it’s nice to be single, well, single for so long ain’t such a good picture! Once in a while, you start to look for people you can talk to and be absolutely comfortable with that isn’t your best girl or boy bud. You look for someone who can make you feel things that you don’t normally feel when just with a friend. You look for someone you have obvious chemistry with. And lately, I guess, that’s what I’m after. I’m not succumbing to the norms of society of having a boytoy by your side. I guess I’ve just really missed that classic feeling of giddiness when you receive a message or a call from someone you really like and you know likes you back. Likes you for who you are and not jst what you have, I might add.
Pretty pathetic huh? But I’m still loking for the silver lining out of this rut.
*not to be mistaken as a single woman’s plea for salvation ( i hope)…i’m not that all too low on the food chain…yet. ;p
