chemistry …everybody needs it once in a while
Lately, I’ve been having the strangest feeling. I guess I could call it "loneliness". Not lonely on the context that you’re home alone, but lonely in a sense that you feel kind of….hollow. Admittedly, I have been a single woman for 5, wait, almost 6 years since I’m almost 20. That singleness not counting the flings, hook-ups, one-time dates and one night stands (which I’ve never had yet anyway,hehe). This phase started some time ago. I’ve first noticed it everytime i go to my routine train ride on the way to school. I see couples seemingly enjoying each other’s companies, and there’s this little sigh machine that goes off.
Irritating, yes. Why? Because I can’t even find reason for this…this…thing! This lonely-hollow-y feeling. Everyone has issues, true. I know most people, mostly women say, it’s nice to be single, well, single for so long ain’t such a good picture! Once in a while, you start to look for people you can talk to and be absolutely comfortable with that isn’t your best girl or boy bud. You look for someone who can make you feel things that you don’t normally feel when just with a friend. You look for someone you have obvious chemistry with. And lately, I guess, that’s what I’m after. I’m not succumbing to the norms of society of having a boytoy by your side. I guess I’ve just really missed that classic feeling of giddiness when you receive a message or a call from someone you really like and you know likes you back. Likes you for who you are and not jst what you have, I might add.
Pretty pathetic huh? But I’m still loking for the silver lining out of this rut.
*not to be mistaken as a single woman’s plea for salvation ( i hope)…i’m not that all too low on the food chain…yet. ;p
December 13th, 2005 at 11:54 pm
The Fred says…
What’s this? Maudlin thoughts from you? I’m surprised (eyebrows raised). Such thoughts I am led to believe were alien to you…
So, you feel that void in your life. Believe me all of us do. All of us that has, will and still living in this world have more than once in their lives have came to that point that they felt the emptiness creeping inside. I will not assume on how “empty” you feel, that would be too much. I’ll keep my opinion until you ask for it.
You’ve been single for quite some time? Five years is indeed a while. But what’s the point in counting? Hey, you’re not alone in that predicament. Like you I’ve been traveling the long road for ten long years. More of a life time would you say? And being alone in this sh*t-sucking world is least of your problem, trust me.
Remember, chemistry is the science of elements and compounds and how they react with each other. The wrong combinations can go “KABOOM” and even the right ones are not guaranteed to work at all. Good thing you taking this spell in a much more calmer fashion, than some people that I know.
But if I may be so honest (rude?) to you Lorraine, you come out to a lot of guys as cold. That can scare a lot of guys away from you. Unless of course they have far darker agendas in mind, they will show up to you with all the courage their pitiful little bodies could muster. Stay away from these animals.
Why the late comment? The title was kinda misleading. I thought ye were talking ‘bout the science, not the by product of the science…
Oh, and before I forgot, what you’ve been feeling is not pathetic…
It’s just plainly irrational…
Kurimasu o shinen omedeto!
Ja ne! Teeny-chan!
-The Fred