hypocrite,that’s the word that’s looking for me.
I wasn’t planning to start this entry with a heaping dose of ego, but here it goes: I’ve always had a way with words, i mean expressing it written or oral. Sometimes it just comes and I write (ehem,type) it down and sometimes, it’s forced (like an essay or a report). But nonetheless, I have a way with words. The problem is though, when these ‘words’ i spit out start emulating my emotions, it doesn’t come out as clear as my other ‘wordly’ works. Okay, confused much? Lemme put it more bluntly. I have this thing of (pretty much) invalidating the things I say. Prior to my previous entries where I have either said I’m scared of commitment or am looking for my L-word, still here I am, now, in a relationship (and I outline it in red too). I’m not saying it’s a bad thing, quite the contrary actually. But to those who I’ve preached to about the horrors of being in a relationship, given the chance, they’d strangle me and chant: Hypocrite. I know I also have an anomalous association with hypocrisy, but c’mon, everyone’s a hypocrite in their own ways (don’t even try defense people!) So bottomline, L-word is the word I’m looking for (uh,found?) and Hypocrisy is the word that’s haunting me.
