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I have finally found the bane of my existence!!!! And it comes in this innocent looking enough red can called Dr.Pepper!!! The Dr. is the shizznitt!!! *lollz! My profile’s all fucked.. I have no idea why tho…but I’ve been kicking my brains out trying too fix it up but to no avail….(OMG,sorry for all those annoying update emails,it’s just insane!!!)

~Jeez, this is like, the gayest shit here EVER!!! ~ (but then who doesn’t enjoy a little gayness once in a while eh?)

Anyways, it 9am and i still have things to see and people to do!!!

*Holy shizz, i just noticed, my screen is like, all wavy and stuff,like its possessed…haha! Woot! Woot!

     You know when you’ve developed a liking for someone right? You notice these little changes within you…you either turn into a total sap or you become a major stiff-head (sorry, my lingo…) In anycase, you know it when you know it.

      But what if that person you’ve developed a liking for is also liked by someone else?  Say, a friend or a cousin, whatever.  You can’t help but get the feeling like "whoa, this is turning out to be some sick sort of contest…"

      You see folks, these things happen, not only to me, i’m sure, but also to the never-ending multitude of guys and gals out there.  Worse yet, what if that person you like likes your friend instead?

       You kinda get ticked off right?  Well, that’s what my predicament is all about…yeah, it’s nothing major, just wanted to get it off’a my shoulder…sure…it’s not like it’s the first time it’s happened to me anyway.

        I’m sure when you’ve been stolen from, misdirected, and cheated off of your guy before, you get pretty used to it.      So sure, I’m cool with that now, and really, I’m glad that the person I liked turned out to like my friend instead. Seriously.  I’m glad.  For both of them, I guess. (knowing that they’ve had epiphanies about each other or whatever…)

      Pretty optimistically resilient eh? And i still (oh and for the record, a lot of people do too) call myself a pessimist?  Tss..I think not.

     I’m not exactly sure if people read my blog and if they find it interesting and i don’t really care coz i write what i want regardless of the quantity of people who read it.(though it still surprises me that comments appear on some…hmmm)
it’s usually filled with smarter stuff but right now, i am lacking the brain powers to write anything of the sort so i’m just gonna sound like a blonde now. =)

     The holidays was fun, got some downtime with my family, played bowling silly till my fingers are about to fall off (seriously), sucked in bowling silly till my dad almost crashed our car coz he was too busy bitching on me to see the road (hahaha! i’m gonna get my ass kicked!) AND i also got myself a watch! (BIG DEAL! but i finally have a sense of the time now!).

     New year’s eve came and i got some pretty silly overpriced garments from my tita…hey i ain’t complaining! Cousin deary gave me the best fucking gift evahhhh!!!! Sorry cuz, if only i could satisfy yours, but my resources have run dry now. Fucked myself up till my eyes were being pulled upwards till they almost bled…eating binges with my cousin deary and being weird…AS ALWAYS.

     I never made any resolutions, i stopped doing that when i was like 14 or something. I finally realized it was pointless to convince myself to do things differently when it all boils down to still me doing these things which make it kinda hard since there are no substitutes to do them for me…ha…damn! Besides, i don’t make shit up that i know i can’t keep to anyway (yes, people, i have zero willpower, i’m a lazyass with these things). There are 365 days in a year for me to make a lot of resolutions anyways!

     Bro down with my family, good food, good wine, good shit, good music….ah yess, this ‘05 holidays is definitely one for my books! IZZ THA BOMB DIGGITY YAW! can ya dig it? ;p i’mma skapoot now coz i’m not making any sense anymore…..later biatches! <3

P.S. so, how was YOUR holidays? =)

   I once read in Angels and Demons that "there is nothing that draws more human interest than human tragedy". It’s true though, I’ve seen it countless of times. Especially here, where "usi’s" are just part of your daily dose of human behavior. (trust me, if you’re observant, you’ll notice)

   But what exactly is that appeal that draws humans to voluntarily witness another human’s suffering? Is it some sick thrill perhaps? The thought of the same fate befalling you, the philosophical answers bound to spur your thoughts or just merely watching for the sake of it and seeing what’ll happen?

   It’s amazing to see these beings crowding around something that they can’t extend any help to (even if they probably wanted to), even putting themselves at risk sometimes over something that doesn’t completely concerns them or even affect them. yet, they stay…and watch…

~this is merely a mad person’s bout of questioning, there are no answers provided here for the dear reader, so if you do have something to say perchance, feel free to comment…

1. Who are you?

2. Are we friends?

3. When and how did we meet?

4. Do you have a crush on me?

5. Would you kiss me?

6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

7. Describe me in one word.

8. What was your first impression?

9. Do you still think that way about me now?

10. What reminds you of me?

11. If you could give me anything what would it be?

12. How well do you know me?

13. When’s the last time you saw me?

14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn’t?

15. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?

     An opinion is neither right nor wrong. It could be used in both negative or positive natures, it just comes down to how one says it. The perception, however, is objective. That is when it can make or break your mood and it is also when your audience stands up to applaud for you or decide to attack you with a sledgehammer and beat you to death. Everyone has a right to an opinion.

     I learned a tough lesson today. The harshest opinion you can ever hear is not from your enemies or the people who slap horns on your head. Indeed, it is from the people nearest to you and know you the most. They are the people who have the most potential to hit your hidden bull’s-eye (still think it’s so well hidden eh? =)) The sad thing about it is the fact that you’re still reeling from the blow, they launch another attack on you, then you can’t react anymore.

     Reality’s harsh and you can’t always win ‘em all with your award winning sunny smile. The smartest move to make is acceptance, then just let it slide, forget about it and move on. If it isn’t pathetically obvious yet, i have just been the target of someone’s (respected still) opinion. 

So what does this smart-ass little weedy-pie do?

‘Sright folks, accept and forget.  I also contemplated on that opinion and made my own!!! HA!!! SYKES!!!

     Have you ever tried to watch reality tv shows?  Coz if you haven’t you might as well call yourself a hypocrite. I myself, watch this show on MTV called Laguna Beach wherein the cast is a bunch of effing high-privileged California kids dealing and wrapped up in their own personal drama to care and to boot. But honestly though, it gives for a good study about human behavior…those who deem to disagree, i do not mind their opinions for it is theirs. (",) I don’t really give a ess anymore…pffft…

   No offense but i’ve known quite a lot of people to be hooked up to this fad called "Pinoy Big Brother". Not that i have anything against the show or anything, but honestly, what does it show us? A bunch of people stuck inside a house with weekly assignments claiming that this is what happens to "real people"? Slogan itself is kinda shady…"Ang teleserye ng totoong buhay" YEAH RIGHT!!! If they want the real teleserye ng buhay, why don’t they get them camera crews and have them man the impoverished areas around the metro eh? Let ‘em see how the "real people" cope in the "real world" with the daunting assignment to just survive for everyday of their lives. You don’t see them constantly complaining while all they have is a carboard box to shelter their very heads and some scraps left over for them to eat?

     Unlike the ones in tv where they are in this house with sweet accomodations providing for their whims and they even have a pool…and they call themselves "stuck"? And they still give raps about how hard it is to deal inside the house? JEEZ… It blinds the society more about what really happens to them and what they should be more concerned about. It’s like, by watching this, people just get deeper in their different phases of denial.

  Yes, TV is just an outlet, a distraction, a deviation from your everyday activities for you to be able to relax and take your mind off of stuff, but it influences us in a way we can’t even begin to realize, in a lot of ways too. I can’t blame people for watching these kinds of shows, hell, i know i effing do! (just not THAT, though)  but please, maybe we can all try a little avoidance of too much comparison of their lives and ours and raise the fact that we have very different lives from these characters we see from tv and the circumstances we may face may not always arise the same way as theirs…

      Lately, I’ve been having the strangest feeling.  I guess I could call it "loneliness".  Not lonely on the context that you’re home alone, but lonely in a sense that you feel kind of….hollow.  Admittedly, I have been a single woman for 5, wait, almost 6 years since I’m almost 20.  That singleness not counting the flings, hook-ups, one-time dates and one night stands (which I’ve never had yet anyway,hehe).  This phase started some time ago.  I’ve first noticed it everytime i go to my routine train ride on the way to school.  I see couples seemingly enjoying each other’s companies, and there’s this little sigh machine that goes off. 

     Irritating, yes.  Why? Because I can’t even find reason for this…this…thing! This lonely-hollow-y feeling.  Everyone has issues, true.  I know most people, mostly women say, it’s nice to be single, well, single for so long ain’t such a good picture!  Once in a while, you start to look for people you can talk to and be absolutely comfortable with that isn’t your best girl or boy bud.  You look for someone who can make you feel things that you don’t normally feel when just with a friend.  You look for someone you have obvious chemistry with.  And lately, I guess, that’s what I’m after.  I’m not succumbing to the norms of society of having a boytoy  by your side.  I guess I’ve just really missed that classic feeling of giddiness when you receive a message or a call from someone you really like and you know likes you back.  Likes you for who you are and not jst what you have, I might add. 

     Pretty pathetic huh?  But I’m still loking for the silver lining out of this rut.

*not to be mistaken as a single woman’s plea for salvation ( i hope)…i’m not that all too low on the food chain…yet. ;p

Title says enough to garner scornful looks to anyone who reads this…yeah people might think "she’s so unloyal" or "look at that scumbag turncoat who’s talking"…but it’s true…i’m not saying that i AM a turncoat,but the loss against letran was the reality…you can’t win everything and losing is just an example of learning from mistakes…come to think of it,in the grander scheme of things,this situation happens. You lose,you get up,then win,and you’re considered a brave and determined person. The last season’s win was overwhelming so to say,namely a one week celebration,school name and its players being thrust suddenly in the limelight but hey,you can’t say that just coz they won that time,they can’t lose another right? (this probably looks like i’m rubbing in their loss,but i’m not) I’m being pessimistic here =) But this loss would probably be a little dose of humility and reality to the "people concerned".  So may it be "the slicing of the dolphins", "the fall of the dolphin" or "the catch of the elusive mammal" (or whatever other clever metaphors people have in mind) there’ll always be a next time.

–So we lost,so shit…they ‘ll live. There never seems to be a shortage of tall guys whose passion is passing around a ball signifying school…pirit(dammit! i just can’t seem to say it!) anyway…

    Since the start of this summer, I’ve had difficulty putting myself to bed…I dunno, maybe because the TV’s more appealing to me than my bed, or there’s just too much caffeine activity going on in my body?  It’s stuck till now. I REALLY need to get to sleep, so much so now coz i spend my whole day at school, and a growing girl needs lots of rest…=) but it’s just tough. Maybe there are too much unnecessary thoughts buzzing round in my gray matters?

   So here I am, writing these "unnecessary thoughts" down in my blog thinking that "hey, this shit just might work!!!" ; at 1am, listening to the most shit boring, blabber-jabber, mumbo-jumbo in the radio, thinking some more about sleep while my PC’s going berserk on me.  Sorry for the boring load of dosh (not to mention totally irrelevant to other people’s oh-so-busy lives), but hey!

   It’s my blog after all!!! Later biatches!!! muahahahaha!!!!